I Am Who I Am

What exactly is your problem? Do you by any chance expect me to dance according to your whims & fancies? Because if you are, I am so sorry, but you are going to be disappointed, again. I thought you knew me well enough. I would have been that exact person you wanted me to be, totally devoted, placing you top most, but you had that changed.

I was that person a couple of years back. Willing to do anything for you, takin the initiative with things, prioritizing you. I got tired. I got tired not being your number 1, not even your number 2. I got tired of getting hurt. And thats when the tables turned. Thats when you knew what it felt like not being bothered about.

I'm sorry to say this, but no matter how hard I try, I cannot be that same person I was. That same naive, desperate-to-please you person.Because even now, I'm still not your number 1. I fall way down in your list.

I will never forget the many occasions when I was ditched for your friends, up till today. And it angers me most when you come to me after all the fun is over with them and expect me to make time for you, saying that you want to spend some fucking quality time with me.

Do you actually expect me to run to you like a lovelorn puppy? Hell no! I may not have friends, but that doesn't make me a lifeless loser. And don't make it look like I'm the bitch just because I don't nod my head like a freaking puppet each time you want to spend some so-called quality time.

I heard you calling me a 'selfish bitch / selfish piece of shit' today. That hurt me so much. But you know what? I don't give a fucking rat's ass anymore. I am who I am. And you had a big part in making me who I am. So, either live with it or feel free to walk the fuck off, because I deserve better.